With all the noise inside my head

With all the noise inside my head

Paulina Bonilla, Contributor

Peace and quiet

That’s all I ask for

but of course that’s impossible.

The sound of nonsense on TV, the sound of music being played.

Your voice that’s always trying to get my attention because the person you are, just won’t let a thought slip your mind without it being heard.

The sound of the dogs barking continuously outside, always demanding something.

The nagging voice that throws orders at me even though I don’t comply. Always asking me to do something, anything. How can I if my mind isn’t even here?

I can’t think straight with all the noise in my head. I can’t think straight with all the noise in this house.

Peace and quiet, that’s all I ask for.

Can’t we go a day without doors being slammed, without your hysterical laughter, without you being irritated about everything?

Why is it that someone always wants to talk? Can’t we have silence for just a minute?

All I ask for is some peace, for some silence.

How I wish that I could find myself living in a sound proof room. No outside noises, no loud voices. Void of all the bragging and all the nagging. Just silence, pure silence…

But of course, that’s impossible.

With all the noise in my head, and all the noise in this house it’s impossible to be sane.

With all the ringing going on inside my head, sometimes I wish I could be dead.

 

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